|Look a rodent! Sweet little guy is under the care of my neighbors, his mama died in the storms.|
I'm still adjusting to the new routine, and life just keeps happening, so I wonder if I will ever adjust.
Last Friday night, after a pizza date with my love, I popped on FB only to find out that a childhood friend of mine had passed on. I am not going to sit here and pretend like we were sooooo close, but growing up we were- we spent practically every weekend for 5 years together, and at one point we were so gung-hoe about our friendship that we conned our single parents (his dad, my mom) into dating-- that only lasted about 6 months, but for those 6 months we were thrilled by the idea that we might become brother and sister.
Then I moved, and we both changed, and like a lot of friendships, we both moved on to new best friends and life went on. Life "moving on" however, is no reflection of what once was. The afternoons spent hiding from the sun under the bleachers, late night telephone conversations, birthdays, seeing your best friend across the arena at your cheer-leading competition (yes, I once was a cheerleader) all those tender moments, your first real experience with selfless love-- your first true friends in life teach you many things, and while I haven't seen Jon since High School, and I haven't talked to him in over 3 years-- I am so saddened by his departure. But, I am the kind of sad that is also happy for him.
Death is also a beginning and in that thought alone, I have always been able to find peace when someones leaves.
SO to my Old Friend Jon, I wish you a peaceful journey through the cosmos and may the next life bring you the peace you have been seeking in this life.
My job is stressful. I won't complain about it because I am happy to have a job, and I am happy to have consistent income again, but man.. Stressful work environments are SO unnecessary. When I am in these situations, be it at work, with friends, family.... where ever... it really magnifies the human condition. People do not honor themselves. They don't take care of their mental and physical health and it seeps into the fabric of everything else they do.
It turns a glass of wine into an excuse to unload every complaint that has crossed ones mind.
It blinds folks-- making it impossible to to see their own contributions to their unhappiness.
It causes unnecessary reactions-- explosive reactions, anger, fear, jealousy.
It is road rage.
It is not being able to get up on time in the morning.
It is not being kind to others..
...and it just makes me so sad.
If more people took care of themselves, and I mean... really made it a priority, the day to day experience would be so much more rewarding. It isn't selfish when you give to yourself because then you have more to give to others. And buying yourself things isn't giving to yourself-- It's more than that.. it's really working on yourself-- taking time to reflect, exercising, eating right, catering to your spiritual needs (if you have them). That is what makes you great. That is what makes you patient. That is what makes you kind.
Rob and I have been entertaining starting out own business-- and so far, other than the concept of what will make us money, an important factor to this business is how we will treat our employees. We want our employees to have a safe place to go. We want to provide inexpensive options for our employees to exercise and live healthy lifestyles. We want to encourage a playful, and productive atmosphere and most importantly we want our employees to feel like they can express their needs to us. I am trying to find ways to be "smart" about it, it is human nature to take advantage when the structure is "flexible" but I think the balance will be found in a mutual respect between employer and employee. I think it is so easy for businesses to feel entitled. "Hey we give you a paycheck, you need to do x, y, and z... you owe us that" when the reality is.. if you come to work and do your job, you don't owe anyone anything other than being present, but when you create an environment where employees can't leave, or take time off, or get yelled and screamed at for being 15 mins late once a week, it produces an environment of stress. I would much rather my employees come in 4 days a week and give it everything they've got, and still have some for themselves at the end of the day, then come in 5 days a week, with only 50% productivity as the week closes.
That rant went on longer than I expected.
What I am getting at is this, my job is stressful, and I am proud of myself for "leaving it at the door" at 5pm-- but, there are days when I think I might lose it-- and I just have to remind myself that I am strong, and kind, and in the grand scheme of things, it is just a job and I have a beautiful life waiting for me at home.
Last week we sent out our first round of wedding propaganda--Save the Dates. It's been fun having our friends send us messages about the wedding. We gave our guests the option to RSVP early through our website and getting some RSVP's has been the best part I think. I am really glad we decided to activate the RSVP section of our website because this will give us a good idea of who is going to come and if they are bringing a guest and all that good stuff-- this is especially helpful when you are DIYing almost everything, and I can promise you all here and now, I will not be freaking out the month before the wedding because I need to complete projects-- not if I can help it anyway.
SO there you have it my friends. An update. I am alive. I am well and I have even been doing yoga everyday.
How's it going in your life? Send me a link to your best post in the past week so I can catch up with you folks!