Be better, not bitter.

I wouldn't consider myself a bitter person, but I certainly haven't always taken advantage of the adversities I faced as a young lass. 

I had to grow up way too fast, that's the short of the long; 

at times, I have been really bitter about and hurt by my past.

On many levels, I subconsciously felt like since I didn't deserve a good childhood;

I don't deserve all the good I have now. 

I know, I know.

Instead of focusing my energies on what I had gained from those experiences; 

I focused on what was lost. 

I knew my past molded me into the interesting person I am today, 

but I never really embraced it.

I am the most positive when it pertains to others. 

I am doing myself a disservice by not fully believing that my past has made me a better person.. 

in return, that has left me quite bitter towards, and often resentful of my parents and family.

Especially when my accomplishments have gone unnoticed.

Not to mention I have always felt huge disconnect between myself and peers.

I've never tried to change the past, or dwell on it for too long;

but I have let it haunt me.

 In moments of weakness, my past is having a field day in my head.

I owe it to my future and present self to really focus on how my past has helped me become a better, more compassionate, empathetic and giving person. 

Those are all good things, and things I really believe about myself... 

so this shouldn't be too hard.

What's haunting you from your past that is holding you back?

xo, 

r