Hit or miss.

I've been avoiding the blogspace lately.

I don't know what it has been lately, but I guess I feel like blogs that lack substance (in my opinion) are the most popular-- I just can't get into all the fashion posts, copy-cat pinterest DIY's, and "sponsor my blog" posts.

Can we just keep it real? I want to know about YOU.

Not your closet, or your desperation for extra income.

I'm not trying to be judgey-- but I can't be the only one that goes through their blogroll completely disinterested in almost every post. The most frustrating thing for me has been a lot of blogs I use to like, lost their individuality. Sometimes I feel like blogging is an extension of High School-- all the popular kids are conformist, and the creative/quirky kids aren't really given the time of day even though they are the most interesting.

ANYway, because of all that, I have a hard time seeing where I fit into the blogworld. The more I express my true self, the less readers I seem to have. I don't take that personally: I'm not interested in fashion, or documenting every DIY project I make. I don't go out much. I'm not a socialite. I don't have any kids and I'm not that interested in weddings (even though I am planning one). Of course there are a ton of bloggers out there that talk about their kids, or wedding ideas or fashion blips that I find interesting.. but for the most part, I am bored with bloggers.

I do like to share my journey-- quirks and differences aside. But I have to admit, I started blogging in hopes of reaching out to folks who share interests, maybe making some friends.. but that hasn't really happened.

I feel really out of place.

Things around here have been a little crazy.

R is working seven days a week, 9am-1am. It is insane. I see how tired he is, and I just feel so bad. I know this is the career he signed up for, and crazy hours during this season are inevitable, but I miss spending time with my guy. Our time has been limited to cuddling at night, and sometimes he wakes up early enough for us to have breakfast/Coffee together-- lately though, he's been rushing out the door to make it to work on time.

R had the day off on Saturday (due to a brown out), so we went for a hike in Malibu's Solstice Canyon. There is a lovely waterfall and stream at the end of the trail, so I brought my crystals with me for a little cleansing and enjoyed a really lovely meditation in the sun.

One of my good friends from High School, my "sister from another mister," Desi-- is working in LA this week, so I had a little dinner party on Sunday night which was a lot of fun. I got to introduce one of my new good friends with one of my old good friends. Red wine was flowing, and apparently the food was good.

I finally got most of the skunk smell out of our place-- but I occassionally still smell it. The smell seems to stick to metal. It's gross.

I've been a little disappointed with wedding planning. I sent out our invites Jan 3rd, and I have only received about 4 RSVP cards in the mail, and a handful of online RSVP's-- I guess I thought I would have a lot more "excitement" from my family-- but unfortunately, everyone seems really caught up in their own lives.

My family has never really been great at validating me: calling me back, emailing me back, or facebooking me back. I am pretty good at keeping in touch with friends and family.. even though the thought is rarely reciprocated, but after a while it really starts to feel like rejection and lately it's really been eating at me.

I have to admit, without my guy around I've been pretty lonely. Most of my friends work for the same company that Rob works for, and the few times I have tried to "put myself out there".. I end up feeling like a freaking weirdo.

At least I have SKYRIM and cats to entertain me.

le sigh.

Hope everyone is well.




  1. I can totally relate. I feel like somewhere along the way personal blogging got invaded by marketers, and I'm not saying there's anything wrong with product placement but when you become a walking advertisement... Blech. No thanks.

  2. Right? I mean I am all for recommending products that you kind useful-- but there are some blogs that place the word "Toyota" somehow in every post, and the blog is filled with sponsor posts & marketing-- lame sauce. ;) But you rock!

  3. I've felt the exact same way about blogging lately; it seems like the most boring blogs have the most followers and it makes me want to throw up my hands and forget about it. I hope you get back into it :)

  4. I can relate also. I am kind of sick of my blog roll being filled with people looking perfect in cute outfits everyday, doing amazing DIY projects or showing off their perfect home. I'm not sure where my blog fits in either.

    My favorite blogs are just about people's honest lives.

    I'm also with you on the RSVP's. On January 7th, I sent out invites for an event (my son's bar mitzvah) and so far the only yes rsvps are from my parents and my husbands parents! I guess everyone is still deciding!

    Have a great day.

  5. Oh man. I feel you. I've been trying to find my voice on blogger for a while now and am baffled by all the WIWS and the WIA and the DIY stuff makes me want to stab myself in the eye with pinking sheers. Glad someone else feels the same!

  6. "The more I express my true self, the less readers I seem to have. I don't take that personally: I'm not interested in fashion, or documenting every DIY project I make. I don't go out much. I'm not a socialite. I don't have any kids and I'm not that interested in weddings..."

    I was literally just thinking today (as I was surfing through other posters from a link-up) about how I'd like to read more bloggers like myself. Wow, that sounds completely self-absorbed when I say it that way..

    What I really mean is that I wish I could find more bloggers who aren't always talking about their kids/wedding/outfits/God/toothpaste/washer-dryers/products and talking more about struggles and happiness and LIFE.

    There have to be "NORMAL" people out there, right??

  7. I absolutely agree. Almost every blog in my roll is either sponsor me crap, meme's and just crap. I don't care about your skirt or where you got it. I also don't give a rip that your pinned 500 things in the last hour.

    And I find that I lose readers when I talk about what's really going on in my life. I try to keep it light hearted so it's not all "life blows and here's why". But I also look for other people's insight because sometimes that's just what I need. :)


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